Poems

Jesus

| Amy Audelo

Jesus, I know that you see me. Here in all this turmoil and waiting. I am asking for your help in peace and joy. I don’t care if life is frustrating, because hasn’t it always been? But I ask amidst the challenges and opportunities that you would come, that your spirit would come and meet me face to face and remind me of what your presence means.
Your presence calms the waves and casts out fear.
Your presence feeds 5000 and casts out need.
Your presence fulfills promises and casts out failure
Your presence completes what was started and casts out abandonment.

I am not alone
I am not afraid
I am not a failure
and I have peace in the presence and in the name of Jesus

Amen.

dead

Quote | | Amy Audelo

I abandoned my life.
The closest thing to suicide
Without stopping my heart.
Abandoned life.
I gave up this girl.
I told her, that feeling all these things
Was just too much work.
That all this leads to nothing
And I don’t want to work
For nothing.
But will you speak for me?
Will you claim me?
Can you please help my life mean something.

flying

Quote | | Amy Audelo

Is there any release in knowing that I don’t need to build myself up? I don’t need to be famous, well known, or even well liked.
Not to be hated or below reproach. But, just to worry less about pleasing.
Is there a walk on the schedule today?
My chest aches.
My tummy rumbles.
No one cares about your story. Maybe not.
No one will know your name.
But they will remember His.
And I will abide in Him.
Like hot water, releasing the fragrance of tea,
As time passes He becomes more potent in this abandoned life.

catalyst

Quote | | Amy Audelo

failure,
deepen my surrender
these are your words
your hands
your eyes
your voice

the desert is a dry place
water is not the solution
surrender is.

Something is to be learned
from the trial.
Not the relief
not the removal of the pain.

My Grace is enough
when its hard
it is enough
My Grace is enough
when it hurts
it is enough
My Grace is enough
when all I can do
is say
Your Grace is enough.

and blessed is he who is not offended by me.

song: hymn (Brooke Fraiser)

shine

Quote | | Amy Audelo

Glory, Gospel, Grace
fall on this place.

Failure cannot exist
when I have come from Victory,

You are a city on a hill, seen
you stand
through attacks and fire
when the storms come
and the city stands.
His glory will shine
His Gospel is shared
and His Grace redeems.
Say it out loud.
Shout
I am a city on a Hill
my light is bright bright bright
and the worlds darkness
cannot consume me
I serve the almighty
It is not my light
but His that shines
It is not stolen
It is not shaken
it is not smoldered
defeat comes to the darkness
and fear must leave.
Shine.

Song: Shine on us (Bethel Music)

frames

Quote | | Amy Audelo

All the frames are on the floor…

An orange.
It’s sweet, full of nutrients
Full of sugar.
Too many oranges can cause kidney stones
Kidneys clean.

He says
Oranges are the fruit of self control
Self control
Is full of nutrients,
Remember when we used to run,
And we learned that you can push yourself
Faster and further
With self control
Too much control makes things
Messy.

Strange.
But, Try it.
Give yourself.
Total Control.
And that’s too many oranges
And all of the sudden
The house is messy
Life’s a mess
And so am I.

Your working it out.
And I know that.
I don’t understand all this.
But there is so much to hold onto
That I would fight mindlessness, full of intention, freedom and love.
Free for freedom
Loved and loving
Seeking and sought
Forgive over and over and over
Great God
Bring me into your light.
Wash me in your warmth
Renew each thought
Bring it into captivity
To stand against your truth
Don’t think
Don’t try
Be sustained
Be surrendered.
Engage with Him.
Stay. Here. Now.

What frames?

journey

| Amy Audelo

“Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty.”

Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it he touched my mouth and said, “See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for.” Isaiah 6:5-7

reveal to me your love God
im not even sure what im asking for
the thought of your glory
the thought of knowing your love
overwhelms me.

youve known my heart since the beginning
but im a child
unknowing and delighted in simple things
but when you reveal your love
identity is found
the cost is made clear; Jesus.

from where we came
we will never return
to the garden
but a kingdom awaits
no innocence is lost on the journey
the price has already been paid

fight my feet to stand
hands lifted high
glory fall
you are my everything
you are all that we need

unite our hearts.

try

| Amy Audelo

I have chosen worry

Over blessing

and its messing

with my joy

I traded fighting

for hiding

to gain the time

to gain the dime

the solution is mine

and all the while

I lost my smile

I lost my health

for the worlds wealth

it has no value

 

in the secret place

where I am defined

by mercy and by grace

so I stopped that climb

and I fell to the floor

hoping to God

for worries no more

but worry was there

with its foot on my back

waiting for trials

and every attack

so whats the solution

for worry and fear

The Word of God

makes it very clear.

He gives a spirit

of peace and sound mind

fear and worry

must be left behind.

I stand to my feet

the truth is proclaimed

no one can take

the freedom I’ve gained.

 

fire

| Amy Audelo

 

 

Once upon a time

I saw this ordinary thing

and I called it

ordinary.

But He has told me

to take off my sandals

barefoot

ordinary

life.

 

 

 

No Song for this one, sometimes its just right to be silent.