Things change, or do they? So quickly I look back on my life and think of what a different person I am from 10 years ago. Don’t get me wrong I am still deathly afraid of June bugs and I still really enjoy getting lost in a good song, but my personality, desires and lifestyle have changed so dramatically.
So its probably funny to hear me say that I don’t believe people actually change.
I look back at the very lowest point of my life, when I realized that nothing in my life was what I truly wanted. I had been living an ENTIRE life based upon what the people around me wanted. I was the ultimate people pleaser and I couldn’t stop myself.

Its easy to feel unique in your disfunction. Its easy to think no one else has this issue, Im alone in my misery. But if anyone stops and does a self-check right now, like a breast cancer exam but for your inner self. What’s your favorite color? Do you love the outfit you are wearing right now? How about the decor in your house? Or the picture on the screen of your phone? Are these things your favorite, or are they a reflection of compromise with someone in your life?
I did a Self check and I realized I was no where to be found in my life. So through a long few years of reflection and painful purging, emotional and physical stuff, I no longer accept things that I don’t want.

I’m Vegan. Which means I don’t accept the belief that the best form of protein come from animals. As I type this I am 21 weeks pregnant. You can imagine the looks I get when people hear that I do not consume animal products, and that my daughter will not be drinking cows milk. It baffles and in some instances upsets people.
I am also a Christian. I believe that God exists and that he sent his Son Jesus through a Virgin birth to die on a cross for our atonement. There again people look at me sideways for actually holding true to these illogical views.
And there are many things about me that I never knew about me until the last 10 years or so.
What i realized in all the transitions is that those things about me have always been there. I remember as a child hating eggs. My sisters would request meat and eggs for breakfast and I liked fruit and breads. Not until recently did I start loving the taste of vegetables, but Im sure the social stigma of “yucky veggies” had something to do with that.
And growing up in the church I experienced religion but in my heart I longed for a genuine relationship with God. A real one on one conversation daily with the Sovereign God that loved me and had a plan for me. Only later in life did I realize that I was the deciding factor around all of these desires, turning into a lifestyle.
And that’s not change. Its growth. Something is in you that has always been there but maybe there’s something in the way. Do a self check. Ask yourself what really matters to you and then be bold. Something in you has been waiting. Set it free.