I have chosen worry

Over blessing

and its messing

with my joy

I traded fighting

for hiding

to gain the time

to gain the dime

the solution is mine

and all the while

I lost my smile

I lost my health

for the worlds wealth

it has no value

 

in the secret place

where I am defined

by mercy and by grace

so I stopped that climb

and I fell to the floor

hoping to God

for worries no more

but worry was there

with its foot on my back

waiting for trials

and every attack

so whats the solution

for worry and fear

The Word of God

makes it very clear.

He gives a spirit

of peace and sound mind

fear and worry

must be left behind.

I stand to my feet

the truth is proclaimed

no one can take

the freedom I’ve gained.

 

 

 

Once upon a time

I saw this ordinary thing

and I called it

ordinary.

But He has told me

to take off my sandals

barefoot

ordinary

life.

 

 

 

No Song for this one, sometimes its just right to be silent.

I am known by you.

God.

Not all that is good smells

of roses and wine

not all romance

is parked perfectly at sunsets

love is fought on a battlefield

and it is called blood shed on cross

it is the endurance of long suffering

when you thought that you would

never survive,

that you would never make it

love stood

through it all

Love has wiped each tear

whispers new dreams

cleaned the floor of my vomit and blood

it has picked me up out

of every pit

I have walked into.

“Come meet my Father”

“Tell Him your name”

God of the universe know my name.

 

Song: “Washed by the Water” Live version (NEEDTOBREATH)

waves crash over me

the salt water rushes

up my noes

makes me panic

I cant find up

I will be lost

swept away

by the wave and

swallowed into the deep.

ok… lets go.

The ocean is the deep

we must fight through

the crashing waves to move

closer to the deeps

closer to the mystery.

 

Song: Paralyzed (NF)

Will you not be free?

My face is peeled off

the sting of exposed flesh

wrings pain through

my life

the whispers of insecurity plague every moment

he has called me

work horse, provider, authority, in charge

and I have accepted responsibility.

The weight of it all  hits my worn and tired body

like a cheap shot it stuns.

defeated, I attempt a step forward

but there is nothing left.

I turn to the ones I love

I scream for help

but help never comes because I have taken the controls.

trembling I fall, I fail.

Will you not be free?

 

 

Song: Have Your Way (Britt Nicole)